There are moments in life when stepping back doesn’t mean giving up, it means choosing yourself.
Maybe you’ve been in places or around people that quietly steal your energy, where your presence feels heavy instead of light. You feel like isolating yourself and disappearing in the woods.
Disappearing isn’t about running away.
It’s about drawing a line. About recognising when something is hurting you more than helping you.
People might call it avoidance. But they’re not the ones who feel that constant heaviness in their chest.
We all have that invisible line – the point where staying hurts more than leaving. And crossing that line can feel like disappearing to others. But sometimes, disappearing is exactly how you show up for yourself.
Disappearing is a powerful step. It means choosing yourself over the noise, over toxic relationships, over the situations that drain your soul.
It’s saying, “I matter enough to protect my peace.
Because if you don’t protect your peace, no one else will. Sometimes, you stop explaining not because you don’t care, but because you’ve explained too many times already.
For me, disappearing wasn’t about cutting ties forever. It was about creating space to breathe, to heal, and to rediscover who I am when I’m not trying to please everyone else.
Maybe you’ve tried to hold on, to explain, to fix, but the more you try, the more you lose a piece of yourself.
There’s only so much self abandonment one person can survive before they go quiet. After a point, trying feels humiliating. You start to ask yourself, “Why am I still here?”
Sometimes, the bravest thing you can do is to quietly leave behind what no longer serves you – without drama, without explanation. Because your energy is sacred and guarding it is an act of love towards yourself. You don’t have to keep proving you’re a good person by staying in bad situations. Choosing yourself doesn’t make you selfish. It makes you sane.
Disappearing taught me that self-respect isn’t loud or visible. It’s silent and steady. And sometimes, it’s the only way to show up for yourself again.
Again, Disappearing is not running away.
Maybe you’re disappearing right now, and that’s okay. Sometimes, the quietest moments are where we meet ourselves most honestly.
after a while, you just go numb. you laugh, smile, do what’s needed, but it’s all hollow. you’re not really living, just performing.